why you don't feel any closer to your dreams - ditching potential.
- Salma Summers
- Feb 24, 2020
- 3 min read
you don’t have to worry or even think for a second that life isn’t working in your favor because the moment you do, is the moment you get lost and disconnected from the moment and as a result, from yourself.
for many of us, aspirations and dreams always seem like a thing of the future. for many years i dreamt of the life that i could "maybe” one day, live. and then it dawned on me that time is moving but things weren’t changing. i didn’t feel closer to my dreams, if anything i felt like i didn’t move at all. my actions weren’t bringing in any results that i could look at tangibly and say “wow i did it” or even “wow i am doing it.”
so i had to slow down and look at things for what they were and in the process of slowing down, i discovered that something in my thinking was wrong, and wrong thinking always produces wrong action.
you can feel like you are moving and doing and making shit happen and still, it can feel like you are always missing the mark - like a dog chasing its own tail - life can start to feel redundant and unfulfilling.
like all things in life, this right here is another paradox. slow down to speed up - stop doing unless you are moving from inspired action.
when i first realized i was on a journey of awakening, i was confused. i wanted to bring old ways of thinking to God and bargain - but there is no bargaining with truth.
when the caterpillar is becoming a butterfly, it goes through the cacoon process. it waits in the darkness and eventually dies to what it is, to become what it needs to be to fly.
we too go through this process. the waiting in the darkness, the dying to who we thought we were - the dark night(s) of the soul.
what i am learning now about the dark night of the soul (or nights) is that they bring us closer to ourselves. our dreams and aspirations were never meant to be chased, they are meant to be REALIZED.
everything you will ever become is already within you - we had it backward the whole time. the dreams aren’t meant to be chased.. you have them at your core, at your essence - there is a version of you that already lives that dream.
it is about un-layering yourself and accessing these aspirations. the more falseness you remove, the more you come into your dreams.
i was talking with a dear friend of mine last night and she told me that potential is something we conceptualize in our minds, that is always outside of ourselves.. but purpose - purpose is something we step into.
you can never outrun the moment - you can forever chase some potential out there or you can come back to the moment and step into your purpose while continuously doing that deep soul work.
the moment i stopped thinking about my potential and what i could potentially become is the moment i realized that this moment is all i have - what i make of it, is what it makes of me.
and that is real.
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